Sarah's Pages

These pages are dedicated to my beautiful daughter Sarah.
Sarah was born in 1991 and died the following year just before her first birthday.

Sarah was diagnosed with leukemia... acute Monocytic Leukemia to be exact...
rare and very hard to treat.

For information on this kind of leukemia click here

I have compiled some pictures of Sarah and also included the text
of her memorial service that we held this year on her 10th anniversary

Sarah's Pictures

Sarah's Memorial


Sarah was a joy to have in my life and she taught me many things while she was here.

I wrote a poem for her memorial and i will also include it here

Her Grace and peacefulness through suffering
Taught me strength and endurance
Her joyful laughter
Taught me to embrace life with an open heart and an open mind
Her ready smile no matter what
Taught me that no matter how hard the road I trod,
no matter how dark the night, how deep the shit,
Every step had a purpose and every cloud had a silver lining
if you looked for it hard enough.

So every time over the last 10 years I find myself sitting wondering why her?
Why me? Why so young?
I look in the mirror and see deep within myself the changes,
the growth and the wrinkles that her presence in my life
and her passing have bought me and I have my answer.
Maybe only part of an answer but An answer none the less.


I found through poetry and music i could connect with my grief and thus move on.
Sometimes these were my own words and other times they were the words of another.

If you read through her memorial you will come across pieces of music that
trigger emotions and memories for me. the words are truly eccumenical...
taken from all religious paths but meaningful in their words. So read and enjoy...
and maybe cry. Tears are the fastest path to healing a broken heart.

But the words that I hear from a distance tell me what i must do and how to do it

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints on snow
I am the sun on ripened grain
I am the gentle Autumn's rain
When you wake in morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight
I am the stars that shine at night
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there I did not die


Peaceful Blessings

Lou